for the suffering that he allows in our lives…
This past Wednesday I went in for my regular OB check up. At the appointment, my midwife was not able to find our baby’s heartbeat. She was not very concerned due to the location of my uterus, and the fact that we had a hard time finding Chiquita’s heartbeat until the second trimester as well. Nevertheless, she gave me the option of either coming back in two weeks for a recheck, or scheduling an ultrasound. I opted for the ultrasound.
My ultrasound was scheduled for Friday morning at 7:30am. I was confident that everything would be fine, but hubby took the morning off work to go with me just the same. I am so thankful that he did.
As the woman started the ultrasound, she didn’t say much. I noticed that she was measuring the baby, and asked about it, but then she changed the screen to my overall uterus and she just said that she was taking a couple measurements. A few minutes later she turned to us and said, “I’m afraid that I have bad news for you guys.”
Our baby’s heart was no longer beating.
It was such heartbreaking news for us, and I immediately started crying.
My uterus measured at the correct 11 weeks gestation, but our baby only measured between 7-8 weeks. They don’t know when exactly our little one died, but said that it could have been anytime in the past few weeks.
My midwife prescribed some pain medicine for when the miscarriage starts, and suggested that I schedule a D&C for Monday or Tuesday, which already happen to be two very emotional days for me each year.
I decided to try and see a very pro-life specialist in the area. I have the appointment tomorrow morning. If I end up needing the D&C, I want to have the best doctor available. I am so scared.
Even though I know that our little one is in God’s hands, and is perfectly happy, I can’t even put into words, how hard this has been for us. It is amazing how quickly you can bond with a child. This baby has only been a part of our lives for a few months, and yet is already so dearly loved and such a precious part of our family.
If you could all please keep us in your prayers, it would be greatly appreciated!
Our Lady of Sorrows, pray for us!
Update: Thank You ♥